The World According to Me, a Snippet

By wildorchid on 1/11/10 3:39pm
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BeautifulBeautifulHere’s some more of the world according to me.

Every day I feel different. I look around and my perspective changes; I don’t know why.  Maybe it’s because of the weather, maybe because of the medication I swallow, and maybe as a result of my own semi-twisted imagination looking at the world in a different way.

The big highs and lows have higher arcs, but the daily differences are more subtle than that and sometimes teach me new things, and sometimes not.

During my periods of mania, I’ve imagined myself in many adventures- I thought I would convert to Christianity one day, only to realize that I was probably being secretly stalked by an aging Vampire the next. (To clarify, I did discard that theory two days later.)

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Are Anti-Depressants Worth It?

By wildorchid on 1/6/10 5:31pm
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Depression and Bipolar DisorderDepression and Bipolar DisorderMost of us who are Bipolar are on some strange cocktail of medicine that only a physician can truly understand. The mixtures are so complex and the side-effects are so bad that it is difficult to comprehend what medication does exactly what and even harder to determine which medicines to stay on and which to cut back on. I just read an article in the NYT about the effectiveness of the more popular anti-depressants on the market and you might be surprised about the results.

The latest news suggests that anti-depressants are more effective in cases of severe depression. This somewhat contradicts earlier studies that suggested that anti-depressants were no more effective than a placebo in a controlled study.


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Regaining Your Spirit

By wildorchid on 12/25/09 9:26am
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The Faces of Bipolar DisorderThe Faces of Bipolar DisorderThe holidays are sometimes tough. I would like to wish everyone a merry Christmas and hope that everyone is in good company and in good health.


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Stephen King's "The Stand", Bipolar Disorder, and me

By wildorchid on 11/27/09 10:46pm
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The StandThe StandDuring my first "manic-episode", I was more than a tad bit psychotic. I had just finished watching "The Stand" mini-series based on the Stephen King novel by the same name and I was convinced that I was deeply entrenched in my own personal stand against evil, and of course, for the sake of good. When I walked around my neighborhood, I wasn't only walking for myself, but believed others across the planet were taking their own private journeys for like-minded causes. I thought we were all connected by various threads to those both alive and dead.


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Bipolar Disorder and Medical Costs

By wildorchid on 11/19/09 11:37pm
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Medical CostsMedical CostsRecently, I've read about health care in the United States for the mentally ill. In January of next year, health care insurance providers must have health care benefits for mentally ill patients, too.


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Where do I begin?

By Bipolar Babe on 11/10/09 2:52am
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Well here I am feeling inspired, creative and so grateful to be here writing a wonderful post to you folks.  I find it ironic that I aimed to enter this site yesterday and it was not working and then on my FB event wall I see this very cool person posted her link today!  Awww...life, don't you love it when things are so meant to be?

It is 1AM and we all know how important it is for us 'bipolars' to get our sleep, nah...I would rather write instead and enjoy the pleasure I get from any form of positive interation, especially when everything connects so perfectly.  I am so reckless nowadayzz...  ;)  It seems to really 'ping and pong' when I am up creating prose or poetry late at night.

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Bipolar Disorder and the Magnetic Pull

By wildorchid on 10/30/09 2:37pm
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Magnetic PullMagnetic PullIn my own Bipolar experiences, I take the pharmaceutical route, mostly because I am absolutely and completely terrified of the consequences of not taking my medication (ie. going batshit crazy, taking off my clothing in inappropriate places, and things like this).  This doesn’t work for everybody and I have had some suggestions from others that perhaps meditation would work (I think this is possible for a maximum of 15 minutes), yoga, or maybe some fish oil. Because I am Bipolar 1, I prefer to do these activities in combination with my meds.

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Am I a Secret Genius Because I Have Bipolar Disorder?

By wildorchid on 10/29/09 1:53pm
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Starry, Starry NightStarry, Starry NightDespite evidence to the contrary, (intelligence tests and meaningless things like that), I always knew that I was a genius inside. This was confirmed first by my parents who assured me that my inability to tie my own shoes was more due to my own creativity than anything else, and later confirmed by my diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder.  Seriously, all the geniuses have Bipolar Disorder, right?


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Respect The Gift

By GHugh23 on 10/29/09 9:53am
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        After 12 yrs of dealing with BP, I've finally come to terms with the power of BiPolar Disorder. I'd been in denial for a good part of those years, not wanting to let go. Trying to control it. Own it. Make it work. My on again off again love affair w/ drugs and alcohol led me down a path of destruction that was totally avoidable. Yes, I was 'misunderstood', constantly searching for "The Why". I would ride the highs and fightkickscratch through the severe lows. Once the sun peaked through my black cloud of depression, I always allow amnexia to set in. "That wasn't that bad". And off I went. Back to my old ways. I loved when my brain would 'burn'. When I could put a pen to my journal and sizzle. Whether it be a movie premise, business idea, conceptualizing an event or designing a space. Optimistic. Eager to test my limits. Trial and much error. The rage to master.

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Bipolar Disorder: Should It Be Kept a Secret?

By wildorchid on 10/28/09 10:31am
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Seattle SunsetSeattle SunsetI was never in the closet with my Bipolar Disorder, mostly due to the fact that I was so crazy the first time I was diagnosed that I needed a medical reason to explain away my behavior. The fact that I called everyone I knew from the mental hospital and told them where I was and sort of why I was there didn’t help either. Luckily, my employer at this time was more than understanding of my absence, and a few days after my hospitilization, I was given a clean bill of health and was back to work.

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